never for money, always for love

Detta inlägget blir på engelska, för jag hittar inte orden på svenska helt enkelt bara.

For once i have trouble finding words and sometimes i wish it wasn't like that.
To be honest with you, i love hanging out with my friends and family and laughing with them.
And to play the piano and to sing. but sometimes it can get a little overwhelming,
because i wish i had one more thing. Love.
A couple weeks ago, I had it all. I hade everything a girl could ever ask for.
And i liked him so much. and my friends and family thinks i'm all right.
That i'm so over him. but i'm not. this is probably the hardest thing i've ever had to do.
When i start playing some sad music and i start thinking about him,
all i ever do is to cry, cause i miss him so much.
I wish that things would be diffrent, and that he wouldn't have left me the way he left me.
That we could talk about it, so that i could understand were he was coming from.
And maybe one day forgive him.
But i can't because..because he won't talk to me.
And i just can't struggle anymore. It's too hard.
And i'm scared that is was all just a lie. that he was in love with somebody else
and just used me to get her.
All i ever think about is him and what it was that i did wrong.
And why i wasn't enough..